my life has changed so much with in the last month. for starters i had at least one drink every day for 19 days straight. it's time to take a break and focus in on my life. a lot of the things that happened were probably due to the alcohol. i almost hate myself for blaming my actions on alcohol. i should know better than to let it take over my life. since so much has happened i will give the highlights.
my best friend won a karaoke contest and i was there as her number one fan! i was cut from a show in the theatre, this made way for hockey games. i became a member of the loud, hard-core fans of hockey. i met a few of the players. i celebrated thanksgiving with my family. i spread the game of pub golf in marquette. i met some new people.
i'm sure that i'm forgetting some things but that's okay. my life has just gone in a completely different direction that what i expected. i hope that i can get myself back on track. i think that a few days in the UP with minimum plans will help me figure things out. i just need that time to myself to think. maybe i'll make use of my snowshoes and go out to presque with an mp3 player and an open mind. the outdoors and fresh air will probably do me some good.
to end this post i have a poem that i wrote last year:
living in the moment
some people plan their lives out,
every minute something is planned,
free time, work, sleeping.
i've lived this life. . .
it's sickening.
no chance to be free from life and all the schedules.
i will live life by the hour,
no minute, no second
actually, i will live life by the moments as it brings me to them.
New plan: live in the moment
make decisions when you really know.
(because who really knows)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
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